Sacrifices aren’t always great and neither are adjustments. They are desirable only when the cause is worth it especially in a relationship. It’s sometimes the human tendency to escape a glaring naked truth that stands in front of you giving you signs. Telling you that your heart isn’t happy and you need to stop faking it.
And you want to escape the whole big vicious cycle of a broken heart n a broken relationship that you have nurtured so lovingly. Trying to avoid the nights that will follow in tears and ache. Trying to glorify the concept of ‘don’t give up ‘ .
And the worst part , you don’t want to blame the other person. That moment from where you just don’t feel any anger towards them makes you realise how powerful an emotion like anger is. How important it is to sometimes confront, fight, argue , shout , cry with each other. You realise how silence and pretentious smiles drive you further apart, making the whole structure hollow from inside. You realise how things are moving just out of habit and either of you finds it a Herculean effort to break away from the habit.
And then you know what you feel. NOTHING… You no longer expect anything from them and I meant it . You don’t expect . Their actions either of irresponsibility, of utter denial or even of love mean nothing to you know. No joy and no anger. You almost feel meditative. Because you know the person inside out and you know they just don’t have the need of the will to change .
But wait ! You don’t want to change them too . Then what is the option ??
To not give up or to just slip into oblivion !
That my friend is the question?